Of course that is not a surprise, but I am a bit surprised and worried at how far I am willing to go in this case. It is not like it is the first time this has happened. I have fallen hard for a lot of girls in my life. There was that hair stylist in singapore last Summer. She was really not the sort of girl a wise man would go for, but I could not help myself. It ended costing me a fortune and it ended in a disaster. In fact I knew it would from the start and that did not slow me down in the least that is a silly thing to tell the truth, but that is how it often is. In fact I was not sure why I did not break it up with her before it even got off the ground. It was clear from the start that she was pretty much heartless and self centered.
As they say the heart wants what the heart wants, although in that case it was probably not my heart that really wanted her. That part was the only good thing about it. She did like to have fun and it was usually fun to be with her. However she never wanted to spend her own money, which is something you can understand. A lot of girls probably never do, so long as they understand what the game is about they do not have to reach in their pockets. I was pretty much in serious debt before it ended and that was not even my doing. In due time she just ran into a guy with a deeper pocket than I had and that was the end of the line. I was not sad, I just felt foolish.